Turned in my group’s 31-page stock project report. Thirty-one pages. of. beauty. naht but WE ARE DONEEEE
Our professor changed our investments midterm grades. Mine went up 8%. YESSSS
Had my first big exposure! This facebook page called Welcome Home posted one of my recipes, and…my stats on my food blog went up. THEY’RE BOOMING. I had to turn off the email notifications. But I think what makes me happy isn’t the numbers. I think it’s cool that I’m getting a lot of traffic, but as I’m reading the comments (which I have yet to respond to and approve…), it’s encouraging to see some of them say they are Christians as well! It makes me so happy to receive so many compliments, but so much happier when some of them tell me they are saved by grace! But YES I am thankful.
Here’s a snapshot of my stats from yesterday: skewed data or what????
reminded of Psalm 62 during worship
Probably left TURF with more questions than normal…but good food for thought.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY ROOOMIEEEEEEE :)
Thankful for catchup sessions and discussions
THANKFUL TO BE HOME. I know it’s finals weekend…but I figured I’d probably go crazy if I were to spend all weekend at school studying. It’s nice to have the comfort of home so close to me :)
i KNOW there are a few more but I’m tired and running on 4 hours of sleep so GOODNIGHTTTT
1) Prayer meeting. I never get to go since I’m at school during the week. It’s nice =). Also thankful for Calvin+Josephine; thanks for the spontaneous adventure to McDonald’s after =) `
2) Thanksgiving Day! Hotpotted with family, then had dinner with super distant relatives for the first time. We have the same great-great-great-grandma or something HAHA. It was good getting to meet new people and play games!
3) These kids. Thanks for bumming around with me.
4) Eunice! We literally talked the entire day. Baked macarons, and just talked about LIFE. See you in three weeks!
5) Friendsgiving. You guys are great. :)
6) Sunday School and Sunday service. It’s always great to be fed at FCBC and to be able to praise a great God!
7) Christmas festivities in the Ko household! We finally bought a new Christmas tree today, and we put up some of our Christmas decorations. AND Ray changed the strings on my guitar. They’re so beautiful :’). LOL about time I changed them…I still had the original strings on the guitar when i first bought it…in July 2010. Womp.
8) Late night conversations…or just conversations with people I suppose. Always good.
9) Reminders to be patient and loving to others. Thanks.
1) A Switchfoot desktop background. And totally putting Jess’ Pixar desktop icons to good use! They’re so cute.
2) Small Group + 11PM Carne Asada Fries
3) Friends who bake with me =)
4) Pretty skies
5) Problem solving. My roommate and I have been taking pictures every week since we started living together. We forgot to take a picture this week. NBD PROBLEM SOLVED.
6) Meetups 7) Friends study with me at Starbucks for 5+ hours. P.S. TRYNA GET A GOLD CARD! My roomie and I are having a competition to see who can get a gold card first. HAH. OH and hurrah for bogo! 8) TURF, work, friends, free ESV bible apps, and so much more… 9) And this (probably the most entertaining text conversation I’ve had all week):
We love The Office. Can you tell?
And my personal favorite:
That is all. Happy Saturday!
P.S. In response to my previous previous post…I WAS PRODUCTIVE. holla.
You don’t have to know a lot of things for your life to make a lasting difference in the world. But you do have to know the few great things that matter, and then be willing to live for them and die for them. The people that make a durable difference in the world are not the people who have mastered many things, but who have been mastered by a few great things. If you want your life to count, if you want the ripple effect of the pebbles you drop to become waves that reach the ends of the earth and roll on for centuries and into eternity, you don’t have to have a high IQ or EQ; you don’t have to have to have good looks or riches; you don’t have to come from a fine family or a fine school. You have to know a few great, majestic, unchanging, obvious, simple, glorious things, and be set on fire by them.
- John Piper
There is a great, great danger. For the things that are seen (your GPA, your resume, the number of friends/likes you have on facebook) are temporary, but the things that are unseen (heaven, hell, hope, and pretty much everything else in the Bible) are eternal. There is a great, great danger, because you can totally waste your finals week. It would be a tragedy, if what you thought was important, was actually of no importance, and what you didn’t give a second thought to, was of infinite importance - that what you thought was a secure as gold will one day burn up and fly away like little ashes in the sky and what was actually everlasting was right in front of you the entire time but you completely ignored it. And it’s not like that this one post is going to change anything about you (but I sure do hope it does), but like most things that we read/listen/watch it, we feel encouraged/convicted/inspired for about 30 seconds and then move on with our lives. So why bother even typing this post? Because, I believe and I know, deep, deep inside of you, there is something that is crying out “I DON”T WANT TO WASTE MY LIFE!” and therefore, there is that same desire to not waste your finals week. But the desire is deep, it’s hidden, and I hope that by the grace of God He yanks it out of you (hopefully gracefully but sometimes we need a little stripping of what we cling to and a little refining and purifying of our heart to really reach that hidden desire to surrender all to God).
So how do you not waste your finals week? It could be stated pretty simply: you will not waste your finals week by making much of Christ. On the flip side, you will waste your finals week by making much of yourself.
Here are some questions to ask yourself:
How do I feel about these upcoming tests? Is there an anxiousness in my heart? If so, what does that say about where my treasure is? What am I placing my hope in? Is what I am placing my hope in even reliable? What or who should I be placing my hope in?
How am I currently fighting sin? Is finals week just an excuse to let sin reign? Am a concerned about my purity? My integrity? My peace? My patience? Or do I think it’s okay to let these things go because it’s finals week? If so, what does that reveal about my heart? What do I really want? Who do I really want to please?
As I think about going through finals week, what is my attitude? How am I treating those around me? Do I see people as just moving blobs that can only waste my time? Or do I see every person as a soul who might be burdened? Do I recognize that there are so many, many needs out there during this time? Am I asking God constantly to use me as He pleases to help meet those needs? Or do I just feel like my life sucks and I am the one who is in need? Do I ignore others? Or do I see every conversation as an opportunity to direct that person towards our great and glorious God?
How do I treat/view my resources? I am greedy about my time, my money, my life? Do I even recognize that it’s not my time, but God’s time; it’s not my money, but God’s money; it’s no longer about me living my life but me laying down my life to make much of Christ? Do I take the time to think about how I can be serving others or is 99.999% of my thoughts throughout the day centered on me?
So I what am I trying to get at? Well, there’s a lot of great things that you could be during finals week besides studying (i.e. taking the time to genuinely ask someone “How are you doing?”, using your extra swipes to get starving apartment peoples food, baking goods in the apartment, writing encouraging notes to people, blogging on tumblr, etc.), but that’s not the point. Maybe you shouldn’t be doing those things because you really do need to study. I really don’t care if you do those things, and God doesn’t really care either. You see, God is a lot less concerned about the “what?” and a lot more concerned about the “why?”. What God cares about is your heart - that you would love God so much more than anything else in this world, that your greatest desire would be to make much of Christ, that you would no longer see everything you have as yours, but see everything you have as gifts from God, and all you’re doing is laying down these gifts back to God in such a way to makes Christ look like your treasure because He really is your treasure. Finals week can be quite crazy (I know, I have to take these impossible tests too), but maybe it might be wise for you to take 30 seconds (0.035% of your day) to think about what your life would look like if you didn’t waste you finals week. And then live it out.
Perhaps I’ve been a little…off in my posts this past week. A little “un-normal,” I suppose, considering I usually only tumbl about baking stuff and switchfoot hahah.
But I am okay. Not okay at some times, and that’s okay! But all in all, God is good. More on this tomorrow, maybe.
Something to end the night because I’m about to knock out:
4 Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice.
5 Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand;
6 do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.
7 And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.
9 What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me-practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.
KOed at 12:30 AM after giving up at around 10:30 after freaking out.
Attempted to wake up at 5:30 AM…LOL NOPE.
Perhaps today will be better.
P.S. I had a bunch of dreams. I know I did. But I can’t remember any of them…but the same people keep showing up. What does this mean? I ain’t no dream interpreter. But it’s kinda weird how life events just kinda creep up into your dreams, eh?
EDIT: I remember some now! It involved Avatar the Last Airbender LOL. It also involved me telling people that I was going to drive myself to school because I needed the car to get back earlier at the end of the week to make it to the Switchfoot concert…and then I realized I was on the wrong week. I am a weird human bean. 2bad.
I have three midterms next week—Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday—and one more the following Monday.
I mean..it’s still Saturday, but not gonna lie I’m slowly starting to stress out.
When I get distracted I look through my iPhoto…
I miss dorming. I miss my hallmates. I miss FCBC already. I miss Taiwan. I miss ASB and being so involved in high school. I miss my high school friends. I miss church class hangouts. I miss my family.
I think I’m at a point where I just want something exciting to happen. Something spontaneous? A surprise? Maybe this is also why I’m so excited for the Switchfoot concert. It’s like my prize after I finish all my midterms.
P.S. I had a dream that me and a group of people got to hangout with Switchfoot. I just remember that we were gonna go chill at the beach or something, and they handed girls foam noodles and some of the people scuba gear. I distinctly remember benjamin getting handed scuba gear LOL.
rantrantrant what am I doing? I need to study. But I don’t want to.
I just want to play and be adventurous..
Hiking, rock cimbing, travelling, discovering new places to eat—please.
Speaking of rock climbing.
I went to my TA’s office hours yesterday. I saw he had a Chris Sharma poster, so when I left, I said “Nice Chris Sharma poster.” Except he didn’t hear it the first time, so I had to repeat it. I felt awkward. He also said it wasn’t his. I still felt awkward. BAH.
I’m struggling here!
I think I can say I’m not okay.
But ask me again in a few hours and maybe I’ll be more relaxed. Perhaps it’s just school thing getting to me.
“What is sin?
It is the glory of God not honored.
The holiness of God not reverenced.
The greatness of God not admired.
The power of God not praised.
The truth of God not sought.
The wisdom of God not esteemed.
The beauty of God not treasured.
The goodness of God not savored.
The faithfulness of God not trusted.
The commandments of God not obeyed.
The justice of God not respected.
The wrath of God not feared.
The grace of God not cherished.
The presence of God not prized.
The person of God not loved.
That is sin.”—John Piper (via hellograceko)
I’ve come to the realization that there is no glory in Children’s Worship. You come to church early, go and set up, and you practice. There is no sound crew. There is nobody there to help you set up. You don’t stand on a stage. There are no spotlights.
The children come expecting the music to be good. The children come ready and wanting to have fun singing. The children come ready to meet God. And if you do a good job, there is no applause. If you do a good job, there are no gifts, and the children do not say “thank you.”
But leading music at church was never about the glory of man. It was always about the glory of God. And when you lead in children’s worship, it is the most humbling experience to be a part of, because there is nowhere to hide. God sees your heart for what it is, and I believe, to an extent, that the children can see your heart for what it is. You are exposed, you have nothing fancy to bring to God, and you have nothing left but to rely on God.